i'll disappear now , this very minute.
i'm falling apart.

haywire after a lil happiness _l_


updating now with numb legs , feeling nausea & deprived sleep of two days
for k.jiawen tag .

not in the god damn mood to take pictures or whatsoever anymore ,
doubt my next few post will have picture smiling like ^

grandpaa in sgh , liver cancer .
heartache to see him like that ,
he had to suffer the pain of all those thick needles inserted in him,
tummy aching with a lil move,
he dotes on me alot ,
never once scold me ,
gave me money ,
despite him being so sick ,
he still worry for me ,
asking me to go home & get some rest.

quit my job at FR ,
for i want to stay at gradpaa side at least 22/24.
sgh became my third home ,
20 hours - 22 hours in sgh.
prayed for him like i never did.
grandpaa & grandma had their baptism together today in sgh.

bye.

aww , i miss sg.
still stuck in thailand ,
cathay pacific is better than jetstar ,
no delayed flight!

i miss emmeline , love & waiyee (!)

post again when i'm back in sg.

you was there for a moment
but you went missing when i needed you most.

ytd bi overnight with me at mum's place ,
slept at 3am?
work today , 12 hours of torture.
bought a top from F21 ,
during work , i almost fell apart ,
cried at lobby ,
i feel like going mum's place ,
i felt so weird at dad's place ,
as if i don't belong here ,
ohgod , what am i thinking.

i guess i'm one who also run away when i met troubles ,
when i'm unhappy at my mum's place ,
i ran to my dad ,
but now when dad & me are on bad terms ,
i thought of moving back with mum .
i seriously hate myself having this mindset.
why am i sucha person ?
god , i pray for things to get better .
but you didn't answer my prayer.

no one was there
for me to reach to /

haywire emotions /

i cried to sleep on tuesday night ,
reason : i was the last to sleep & i felt so lonely without someone beside me D:
the feelings sucks , boo!

then today went work at 10am , damn early.
peel orange till finger hurt like no tmr.
went shopping after work ,
bought a tube from bebe, money fly but uber contented.
currently at mom's place again ,
dad was like not very happy with my overnight at mom's place ,
he say ,"when you telling me you moving me for good huh? "
so sarcastic hur ._.
bi came , he's playing with ezekiel like a big kid.
think he gonna overnight today ?

kim , love .
don't cry alrd alright ,
things will be fine for you.
i'll pray for you ,
i'll lend you my shoulder again when you cry okay ,
love will always be there for you <3