define love & lust .

!!,guys are creatures that hurt you

oh hello,todays topic is oh so interesting. just read on and don't take your eyes off the screen. okay let me start with some typical nonsense, quarrels -> short texts -> cold shoulder. oh my, we have not been long and problems are arising. wtf is going on?!! you made me oh so curious every now and then. i'm speechless at almost every single text you sent. you forced me to those short texts and then let us drift apart. you're not that one that i knew or trusted anymore. since things are like this now,let all this nonsense come to an end. i'll neh trust any guys so easily anymore,all guys are the same. there are three guys that i once fell in with veh deeply among all the others, first was ngweixiang,who sweet talk and pamper me through the three months one week tgt making himself so unforgettable till now. then it was yeoginwei,the one who changed my thinking and eased my pain when i fall hard because of ngweixiang,he was that one who gave me the happiest period of my fifteen years but also make me do crazy thing over him when he left me standing alone,the craziest i ever did till now. and then come back to make me rmb him deeply and etched his name in my head and left me again. he changed me to a person my friends and family would neh want me to be. after this relationship, i have a fear of having boyf getting close to me,like holding my hands and stuffs and i lingered on for eight months on this relationship. then there's a guy who trys to come into my life again but i alrd predicted it wouldn't last and in fact end veh soon but i don't know why i accepted him tough,thinking maybe he will prove me wrong. but he's no diff from any other guys. and so the conclusion is guys are creatures that will cause you to be veh hurt though they can also be the one that make you the happiest,blame it on this three guys that cause me to have this mindset. guys kill so silently and to prevent from being hurt is to be single. and lastly happy birthday to junting :D