define love & lust .

2011-10-19T19:56:00.004+08:00

The ESCAPE .

okay , I'm so glad that i'm sitting on my bed posting now & not dead / trap in Bali.

I was at Bali from the 9th - 13th and the earthquake struck Bali on the 13th , just when i reached the airport entrance. The earthquake was due to the volcano eruption & we actually went to see the volcano one day before it erupted , lucky hor !

Okay , back to the earthquake .

when i was standing there , waiting for them to unload our stuffs .

suddenly got a "boom" sound & then everyone in the airport started running out .

first thing that came to my mind , is there terrorist ? is there a bomb ?

then MIL ask me faster inside the car & after a min , FIL ask me faster come out .

when i got out of the car , i saw the whole building shaking .

Like wtf , i was so near to the building , now think back , machaim like watch tvee sial .

first time , i see a building infront of me shake till like that .

Everytime see building shake , only on news lo !

We ran to the open space car park which is quite a distance from the airport.

and the officers from the customs , all the security guards , all outside sial .

and after around 15 mins , we went in to check in .

everything inside jialat , everything in the duty free store was messed up .

the ceiling fall off , so scary sial !

But i did enjoy the whole trip except for the day before we left ,

experience tummy ache & bleeding .

we stayed in hard rock hotel.

The seafood restaurant that we dine by the beach.

The yummy food.

This was the place where the earthquake hits worst.

And this is the volcano that erupted & cause earthquake.

The place where they did their spa & i did my mani & pedi.

The sunset at kuta beach.

A must go place.

Their crispy chicken , you can even eat the bones.

The one that's baked with salted egg.

There's a park with monkeys everywhere.

This monkey do stunt sial , walking on wire.

The guy beside bei is our driver during our trip there.

The crispy duck , very nice , must order one day in advance one.

I forget the name of this temple.

Tanah Lot .

Bei bumped into his campmate at tanah lot too.

And my beibei got a lil more fatherly but became less loving to me alr.

last time kiss me , now kiss my tummy ):

And this is my belly when lil precious hits 20 weeks old.

now shall end with this picture , bye bye.

2011-10-06T06:21:00.001+08:00

Most happening update of my life.

Firstly ,

status changed.

A big thankyou to all the sisters & brothers for the great help !

okay , this will not be very detailed as i'hv yet to recieve my wedding video & photoshoot pictures ,
when i get the video & pictures , i will do a very power post about my wedding !

Secondly ,
I'm pregnant ,

I found out that I'm pregnant on the 29th June , 3am .
On that night , i went home with a bad tummy ache.
After washing up , i thought the tummy ache was my gastric problem so i ignored it ,
was trying to sleep so badly but my tummy hurts so badly.
I called up No.1 fav & told her about it ,
she rushed down from bukit gombak to fetch me to SGH .
Did all the usual stuffs that's needed , register , urine test & so on .
then head out to have a puff , smoke halfway ,
recieve phone call from SGH , tell me to back asap .
I thought like what illness i got sial , then faster go back ,
reach only ,
the nurse ask me , " you know you pregnant anot ? "
I replied , " is it ? i don't know ley "
the nurse quickly ask me to lie down go check is it safe pregnancy anot ,
cause my stomach keep pain.

From then , I DIDN'T SMOKE A STICK .
very power right ?

then check see where's the baby , doc scare baby inside fallopian tube .
but heng , nothing wrong .
the baby at the place it should be , everything's well .

called up Bei around 530am ,
he was like , really ah ? don't make me happy ley .
then tell him real one , he still think i joking sial maybe because i was laughing .
so took quite a while to convince him .

And now my baby precious is alr 20 weeks old !
this pregnancy is really tough as baby wasn't so stable at first ,
in and out of the hospital , confined to bed rest all these ,
maybe because i'm too clusmy & very chor lor .
but luckily everything is well now ,
stable & growing well , can see that baby is well fed by just looking at me !
I gained total of 20kg !

Thirdly ,
Honeymoon postpone to next year , after i give birth ):
but will be leaving to bali for a short getaway ,
from 9th - 14th .
after Bei POP which is on the 8th , like so finally .

shall post again when i'm back !

bye , miss me.

2011-06-06T04:38:00.001+08:00

Tioman , Birthday & Genting

This is gonna be a long long post with tons of pictures to update !
esp for my No.1 favourite girl cause she no fb so she ask me post here !
I alrd try to post as much as i can alrd.
I luv my No.1 favourite & my girls & my dearest boyf.

The beach here very dark & can see alot of stars ! <3

Trying to haolian ! but not he catch one !

17th Birthday !

Short Getaway to Genting.

陈广今 , 我是专属于你的 , 只有你.

2011-03-28T04:45:00.000+08:00

You grew up .

Sentosa ,
Nights out ,
this has been ongoing for quite some time ,
should really start to work ,

gonna hold a chalet for my birthday in may ,
im gonna keep myself busy !

Lastly , i love c.xh & my man.

2011-02-18T12:37:00.000+08:00

Update w/o photos.

It's damn wordy cause it's without any photos ,

so it's up to you.

I had my valentine's day spent with my family ,

dad's advance birthday celebration cum reunion dinner .

had lots of laughters like before cause my dad's a joker.

my new hot favourite is c.xh ! <3

meet up w my c.xh , she's my favourite nowadays.

caught "what womans want" , "alls well ends well 2011" & "the rite" .

I caught "homecoming" too .

I was damn paiseh when watching "the rite" cause i screamed .

like wtf , i screamed alone , if got others scream still not so obvious ,

end up all look at me , like f .

I screamed when i saw lucas possessed.

frolick as usual .

and i was so bothered last night cause during the 2hrs before our movie ,

I find myself very no life ):

gonna catch four movies with favourite next week !

favourite girl now sleeping beside me ,

still say i need to maintain !

and of course i miss my girls ,

all buay gam their timing one ,

i sleep , they very awake ,

i wake up , they need go home cause next day got school / work .

jitao sian 1/2 ,

heng c.xh timing very gam me ,

if not i cfm rot alrd.

and lastly , happy birthday waiyee :>

2011-02-01T14:23:00.000+08:00

I miss all those that can't be rewind.

I MISS THOSE WHO'RE IN THOSE PICTURES ABOVE &
ALSO KIMBERLY TEO , KOH JIAWEN , LIM JIAJIN & PHULWIN.

2011-01-08T22:24:00.000+08:00

錯的人

yah , again .

chlovelle met the wrong guy .

but well ,

i'm fine , i'll move on well.

2011-01-08T02:50:00.002+08:00

You melt my heart .

baobei did something uber sweet ,
he leave me alone outside the living room ,
all alone watching tvee by myself.
so lonely right ?! bad !
but he was actually doing something in the room .
he was making that picture above !

luv you !
you're getting more & more kiang alrd ah !
distract me huh !
cheeky & silly boy ! <3

2011-01-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

9th .

Happy 9th baobei !
luv you always &
my silly cutie pie made me something on 12am .

It's the picture above ,
ain't he a sweetie ?

shopping today , spent alot again .
bth myself !

I finally put my polariod in good use today ,
with xiaohui !

tired much ,
bye peeps.

Espana.

2010-12-20T09:11:00.003+08:00

Spain .

O - la !

means hello :>
it's been long since i blog ,
blogging at spain , cordoba .

just finished webcaming with meiwei !
im starting to love the weather here.
at first i was going ga ga ga , shivering !
now , i love it.

so far ,
barcelona , madrid , zaragoza , valencia & more that i've forgotten.
currently at cordoba.

and the holiday inn here sucks ,
lucky only stay one night.

still thinking what to get for my girls ,
*crack brain*

shall summerize with some pictures first ,
i'll upload all pictures on fb when im back at sg.

and to ygw ,
cheer up , you'll meet your right one soon ,
it's not that you're not good ,
you just haven't meet your right princess.

time check ,
spain : 210am
sg : 910 am.

nights people , i needa wake up at 6am later >:

2010-11-18T05:54:00.001+08:00

Awesome life .

leading a awesome life now ,
though there's some unhappiness recently.
baobei & me haven't been quarreling alrd (Y)
nowadays with him really got the pat tor feeling ! teehee
I love my baobei & my awesome girls :>

&&
I miss out much fun at prom ,
gaahhhh >:
the pictures will do the talking.

2010-10-24T16:10:00.003+08:00

Learn from mistakes , Regret but don't whine.

I made a mistake recently ,
I'm sorry about it but I can only blame myself for lacking of discipline.
Life for me now is like wasting time ,
though i enjoy it but i know this shouldn't be the way.
Mahjong , playing those wasting money games overnight ,
talking craps , fooling around .
I should start to get a job since i disappoint my dad ,
I don't mean to be late for work to the extend that i didn't attend.
I overslept.
I'm sorry , real sorry.
But maybe going out to get a job might help ,
to improve my attitude towards working.

And , quarrels have been increasing .
I know you might not mean what you say but it hurts ,
I'm sorry for my attitude & temper.
I'll try to change , we'll try to work this love out baby.
I love you like I always did.

2010-10-11T00:10:00.000+08:00

It's all over .

all i want is what you promised.
i want like what you promised ,
i want you to love you like you always did ,
but i can't feel it anymore .
i never expect you to marry me and have kids,
but you said you wanted & still promised me,
yet now , i can't feel that you mean it.
you make me let go of our life .
and go back to square one where you dont know me ,
and i dont know you .
you force me .
it's not that i no longer love you ,
but you force me to let go.

i only want to let go , go wild ,
club & drink till i forget everything.

2010-08-27T03:41:00.005+08:00

We'll make it through together.

Love might not survive us through everything ,
but as long as we believe in each other ,
and perservere together ,
we'll make it through together ,
we'll grow up together ,
you will wait for the childish me to grow up , right ?
we'll work & earn money ,
we'll meet up for dinner after work ,
we'll have a best wedding to mark our love
( rmb 9 August , 0128am ? ) ,
we'll have a kid or two together ,
we'll have fun together ,
we'll have those a lil adult life when we grow older ,
we'll go mahjong together ,
we'll go shopping together ,
& we'll have alot other stuffs together ,
you promise me , you better do it.

I love you .
___________________________________________________

been working nowadays ,
shag max ,
but working with fiance , so still not bad .
been missing school ,
i miss my girls , kimberly , cynthia , xiaohui & shuchuan !
( shuchuan not so much cause i just met her ! hhaaaa )
life's hard , but so ? still have to face it .

plus fiance still not feeling well.
few pictures to show his funny face ,
he's funny face always smack a smile to my face .

sick cat.

my cheeky boy.

act one poor thing .

sot alrd.

see his kuniang smile , hahaaa.

alibaba

2010-08-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday qiqi.

cynthia ah cynthia ,
you're a year older now ,
but machaim no change ,
still like small lil girl , hee.
pray hard you forever won't age hur.
you're with me when im down ,
i enjoy smoking & shitting with you in the toilet together .
i miss us slacking together ,
eating dinner together ,
and etc.
you have been a great sister ,
a great friend.
i love you my beloved qiqi ,

lastly , happy wild sixteen !

lal

2010-08-15T23:36:00.001+08:00

Enjoying .

I should be a happy girl ,
no need to see your faces ,
see all those shit alrd.
Im free ,
but happiness is shortlived.

2010-08-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

No longer the same.
I know you're gonna say that i think too much again ,
but i realize as i stick to you ,
close to you , stay by you for too long , always by you.
you seems to get tired of me ,
i want to be by you like i used to,
but somehow when i feel that you're sick of me ,
i'll show a face ,
ignore you ,
i don't like this ,

maybe like what you said ,
i think too much.
but i don't feel so.
i prefer the us in the past ,
always laughing like silly dummy ,
smiling like no tmr ,
i miss us.

2010-07-12T00:49:00.004+08:00

He's the one .

He's the one by my side ,
ups & downs.
thankyou much bei ,
i know i'm unreasonable at times ,
grouchy & show you attitude ,
but you understand & tolerate .
you're totally understanding.
unlike me .
i know i shouldn't cold you that night ,
it's all my fault ,
and i shouldn't gave a face when i'm lack of sleep.
i thank you for being there for me like a pillar.

Daddy,
sorry for hurting you .
but it's been hard on me ,
the hurt is there ,
the weird feeling is there ,
deep down alrd.
we might say we can forgive & forget ,
but deep down ,
can we all really do it ?
you're still my dad ,
but i told you the reason alrd ,
i hope you understand.

what i learnt & felt ,
what you have around you now
might not be significant ,
or mean anything ,
but when you lose it ,
you'll realize it actually mean a thing ,
and it's like real impt to you.
cherish what you have
before it's too late ,
we tend to regret this & that ,
but what done can't be undone .
no point crying over spilled milk ,
move on ,
change for the better to prevent
the mistakes from repeating.

2010-07-06T21:02:00.002+08:00

one sided /
excuses ,
i feel like a fool ,
i won't look forward to any of our monthsary
anymore.
it's just like any other day ,
it don't mean a thing.

2010-07-06T02:30:00.007+08:00

Happy 3rd Monthsary.

through this few days ,

through all the obstacles ,

i knew you're the one ,

you stood by me though i ask you to leave ,

you solve things for me ,

when everyone give up ,

even i myself gave up ,

you told you didn't.

if it had not been you being by me ,

i don't think i still have the chance to sit here & post.

even daddy told me that he can see that you love me ,

thankyou m , i love you.

It's been three months ,

but it don't actually feel like.
but whatever ,
just pray that we'll be happy tgt.
and

I removed my tagboard .

2010-06-26T06:09:00.002+08:00

he's the one i need ,

Bei, i'm sorry

There’s this boy;

the way he laughs, slaps a smile to my face.

The way he talks, never fails to caught me thinking much.

He'll take cute lil pictures claiming he's mine , making me real happy.
He'll celebrate my birthday with me .
And maybe, just maybe, everything about him makes me happy.

He may not be the best guy around, but to me, he is.
And there’s just something about him that blow my mind away & love him much.

I love how he always find a way to be the highlight of my day.

And that guy is none other than Marvin Tan HJ.

But i always failed to really cherish him ,

make him angry & hurt me .

crying after a night ,

i realized my mistake ,

i'm sorry ,

i'm sorry to misunderstand you ,

i'm sorry to raise my voice ,

i'm sorry for those harsh words ,

i thought i could apply my principles ,

but on you , i failed .

i love you too much boy.

i'll try to keep my temper ,

be better to you ,

i felt so strange after that quarrel ,

don't cold me ,

treat me like before please.

i know it's hard to tolerate me ,

i know it's hard on you ,

i'm sorry.

We met by a trick of fate ,

but we might probably turned it into a lifetime .

2010-06-20T04:56:00.006+08:00

Day 9 without M & Happy Father's Day

Mister Alden Tan ,

happy father's day dumbo daddy !

day 9 ,

coping well , cause i'm chlovelle.

went safra around 10 pm ,

with shuchuan ,

played with pohchai , audrey , weijie ,

around 11 plus , zewei joined us.

played till 12 plus ,

bus 145 to redhill mrt ,

no more bus alrd ,

so zewei walked me home .

reached home around 1 plus.

can't get to sleep again.

stop my brain please , i need to stop .

church later , think i'll go straight without my sleep.

the worst thing is to dream about the one you love ,

loving another girl instead of you .

2010-06-15T16:23:00.002+08:00

Day 4 without Marvin Tan.

sunday ,

saturday never sleep till sunday straight go church ,

power pac ,

still never sleep during service ley ,

after that meet shuchuan & zewei , played volleyball ,

hands swollen & blue black >:

reached home about 6 plus ,

ko till monday 3pm ?

shuchuan came my house ,

wanted to go swimming but late alrd ?

so rot till 7pm ?

bus down with her to vivo ,

she work ,

i acc ah mah to kallang ,

eat & she catch up with her friends ,

chance upon qianni & raphael ,

reached home around 12 plus.

ko around 4am ?

woke up at 4pm.

i'm like a pig alrd , sleep sleep sleep.

2010-06-13T01:27:00.002+08:00

Day one without Marvin Tan

slept at 8am ,
woke up at 2pm plus?
roll around ,
bathe & prepare then
meet shuchuan & zewei at 7pm.
went cine ,
acc her to find yingrong's 2nd sis.
flea market.
baby jacob , yingrong's 3rd sis & his dad came down too.
went rummah tinggi take clothings ,
things happen , shag max.
home at around 10pm.

I still yearn to be the person that touches your heart and makes it skip a beat
I still yearn to be that person whose arms make you just melt
I still yearn to be the person that your destined to be with.

2010-06-07T04:58:00.001+08:00

second 6th /

dinner with your bei's family ,

his sister was cute & ultra entertaining.

first movie with bei as well as his family , opps.

marmaduke , not bad !

then home with bei ,

& bei was running a fever just now , scare die me >:

after a sleep he's alright

& i'm so lucky to have a boyf that

will bring me out for supper when i'm hungry at night,

i'm a happy girl cause bei's with me these few nights ,

luv him ttm.

pictures !

Happy 2nd Monthsary Dearest M (L)

2010-06-03T03:24:00.006+08:00

Cherish

ups & downs ,

through alot of things ,

i knew you're always there whenever you could.

i knew you're the one through those stuffs .

thankyou dearest.

chlovelle tan ,

no more nights out ,

no more overnight ,

no more not going home for 3 or 4 days ,

no more slacking ,

study , study & study to shut her gap.

prove her wrong .

i survived on ice cream nowadays.

funny hur ,

i'm so gonna be a fat pig .

i miss my dearest m ,

while he's enjoying himself ,

playing the sickening mahjong.

bird man lah >:

2010-05-25T03:08:00.004+08:00

Harshness act ,

I finally realized that , a relationship without trust is like our hands without our fingers. It can never move.

In a game , there's only a winner .

In a relationship there must also be one that's willing to lose.

I learnt not to think too much as everything is alrd planned.

I'm trying to apply " learn from mistakes " , " forgive & forget" .

Someone knock some sense into me just now ,

Its never too late to learn from your mistake & change , regardless of age.

As long as i'm willing to.

Changing a person needs time , love & patience.

I thank that person for helping me & talking sense into me so much.

I'll thank you by applying what you impart to me ,

I can't guarantee i'll do a great job but i'll try.

If you're willing to acc me through ,

I'll make each day that we're together like the first day we're together.

Being together with you , i only want you to be happy , us to be happy.

I'm at fault too , i admit , i apologize.

i'm sorry my dearest.

I know i also have my bad points ,

things that you dislike.

I'll try to change.

I hate quarrels too , who like it?

Quarrels only make us bring out our fierce mask , ugly side.

Make us afraid , tired.

My heart hurts too when stuffs like this happen.

Grow up , we shall grow up together .

This is only possible if you are willing to learn , forgive & forget.

Real tears are not those
that fall from the eyes
and cover the face,
but those that fall from the heart
and cover the soul.

2010-05-09T01:52:00.003+08:00

contented much ,

friday , english & chinese paper 1.

english still okay ,

chinese , buang alrd.

then after school , home ,

then shuchuan's house , bei came.

then went kfc for lunch with bei

while shuchuan acc cynthia home to change.

then went library with cynthia & friend , shuchuan & bei.

& then zewei & yingrong came.

then kfc again & then to pool at safra.

then something happen ,

then bei , yingrong & xuyang come meet us again ,

more people came ?

then stayed there till 3am plus & then cab home with bei ,

buy cigarette & heart to heart talk with bei downstairs my house .

around 6am ,

bei overnight my house (Y)

bathe & stuffs then ko at 6 plus till 3pm ?

cooked egg for bei ,

then lunch / dinner .

meet shuchuan downstair my house ,

yingrong joined us after awhile .

then bei & i went up to prepare then

around 10 plus walked to queensway shopping for pool.

stupid uncle regcognised me , then can't play.

mac instead , slack , crap .

then around 12 plus , bei's friend ? sent shuchuan & me home.

boring ttm now.

2010-05-04T21:27:00.003+08:00

FML ,

sucky day ,

mixed sucky feelings ,

morning , got scolded .

afternoon , another one.

seriously i never see before a mom like that ,

don't give me money , you think doing this i'll compromise ?

please , it's alright to starve , i can tahan.

still purposely order mac for them except me.

give the two younger ones money , purposely don't give me ,

want see i beg you iszit?

so sorry , i won't .

i die die won't beg you ,

so what if you don't give me money , i won't compromise.

i rather starve than talk to you ,

seriously , i can always work to support myself.

i know you got your ways to see my blog ,

see it then , blog it out for you.

don't wish t0 elaborate on other stuffs ,

it just sucks ttm.

goodbye.

2010-05-03T22:10:00.003+08:00

havoc weekend ,

not going home from friday to monday , free ttm.

ytd shuchuan came to meet me at purmei at night ,

then sweet left for his friend ,

camwhored , lol.

around 10pm or 11pm , bei joined us .

then after that yingrong joined us.

felt so much better talking to yingrong ,

talked things out with bei ,

then bei's friend drove us around and ended us at kallang mac ,

around 530am ,

reached heights ,

talk awhile with yingrong ,

and up to bei's house ,

ko till 5pm , nice one.

then went 78 to eat with bei's cousin and friend ,

around 7 plus , cab down to meet shuchuan ,

then some sucker made her cried when she's sick , like f only.

then around 9plus , bus home .

bathe and stuffs.

nobody at home , all out-'-

2010-05-02T15:24:00.004+08:00

what's the cure to heartbreak ?

went bar 1 with bei & co. on friday night ,
bei caught me five stuff toys (Y)
overnight at bei's place ,
gave the saturday church service a miss.
then rot till 6pm?
meet zewei & co.
went vivo at 7pm with shuchuan.
subway for dinner , vomitted -'-
then walked over to harbourfront market to meet cousin's friends.
after that cabbed to bar 1 .
sing sang sung , drink drank drunk.
totally drunk ,
first time vomit after drinking.
i rmb got people 公主抱 me till very xinfu , then vomit.
then somehow next morning wake up , at sweet's house.
KO.

i know bei's upset with me.

2010-04-30T02:00:00.000+08:00

nobody knows what will happen tmr /

it's gonna be 11am in 10hours time,

he's gonna be off soon , gone for good.

just now during service , ah mah fainted.

why ?

i know he will suffer if he don't go ,

but i hate to see him leave me ,

not grabbing my hand anymore ,

i know i'm selfish think this way ,

i know he's with papa god now in a very peaceful place ,

but i want him back ,

i want to spend time with him ,

i want that gong gong that will ask me "eat alrd?"

i want him to sayang my head when i'm down or sick ,

i want him to bring me for supper ,

i want him to make nice tutu kueh for me ,

i want him to wake me up for school ,

i want him to nag at me when i bathe late at night ,

i want him to shield me from all problems and unhappiness ,

i want him to dote on me like he always do.

i haven cook him a proper & nice sunny side up ,

i haven bring him to the zoo ,

he haven taught me the recipe of our tutu kueh.

he haven celebrate my 16th birthday with me ,

and he'll never celebrate anymore birthday with me .

i want him back ,

i promise to cherish the time with him if everything could rewind .

papa god ,

you're mighty right ?

then please return my gong gong to me .

i need my mister nice nice gong gong ,

my ah mah needs him ,

everyone needs him.

standing by his coffin , talking to him yet no reply .

when i'm in the hospital beside him ,

his hand grabbing my hand tightly ,

i even dream about him taking off the oxygen mask ,

but now ,

he didn't appear anymore in my dream,

what i see now is a gong gong without temperature ,

handsomely dressed in suit ,

no longer responding to me.

after 11am ,

i can't even see him anymore ,

not even a body without temperature.

people always say ,

he'll live in our heart ,

he's with us .

but what i know is ,

he won't grab my hand anymore ,

he won't talk to me ,

i can't feel him ,

i can't attend to him anymore.

holding back tears , pretending to be alright .

laugh , mahjong , crap when the one who dote you the most left you .

how hard is that ?

no one understands .

no one know what i going through now .

i don't know how long can i hold ,

i don't what will happen next week ,

i want to forget about the pain in him ,

i want that gong gong who dotes me most.

2010-04-29T16:38:00.005+08:00

you won't learn to cherish untill you lose it.

if you notice the blue piece of cloth in the picture ^ and you're a chinese , you'll know.

yes , gong gong passed away on 26042010 , 0208am.

before he pass away , ah mah told me not to go as tmr got school.

then i overnight at bei's house lo ,

next morning , saw dad's text and know .

cab home then bring lil sister down to ho swee.

prepare , wait for gong gong to come back.

see him for the last time before they cover the coffin.

i'll miss him.

it's hard for us but we know he want us to smile instead of tearing.

fall out with mum , she's not gonna interfere my life anymore (Y)

mrs annie goh came ,

i'll not attend school this week ,

next week exam , buang alrd.

he'll be off at friday morning 11am.

thankyou to all those who came.

2010-04-22T19:16:00.003+08:00

clingy 24/7

almost late for school ,

but i'm on time (Y)

chinese test , i completed every single question.

english oral tmr , panicky >:

art was relaxing & uber funny.

sat at the sofa at the back , so relaxing till i almost fall asleep .

then helped shihui tie scorpion ,

vain girl , hahaaa.

i mean which girl don't care about how they look.

then after school went ezekiel's school just to ask about his lost wallet.

that's why being the eldest sucks ttm.

home to change & prepare ,

cooked abalone & scallop porridge for bei ,

cab down with shuchuan ,

like so finally see till bei , opps.

he's sucha joker , no strength chew abalone!

hahaa.

cam whored , then around 5plus cab home.

caught in the rain , like cold only.

ask the uncle turn down the aircon ,

he act blur , pretend never hear.

2010-04-21T20:15:00.005+08:00

Dearest , get well soon oh.

late for school ,

like normal only .

paper cut hurt as much as any normal cut.

went home after school ,

no life .

bei's sick.

hope he get well soon.

can i have a break?

i want to stay away from

school ,

uniform ,

heavy bag ,

books ,

exams ,

teachers ,

don't restrict me ,

and just enjoy ttm.

last time go out just say only ,

dad won't ring me up unless it's real late ,

now , i need to seek permission to go out .

what is this ?!

tell me why ?

i want to work cause

i want to go shopping ,

it's been so long since i shop ,

broke broke broke ,

can see cannot buy ,

last time shopping , ah gong sponsor ,

now i just want him to be healthy.

why like that ?

i want to go out with cousin and spend all night long ,

i want to stay away from this home ,

i want to whine to dad when he come back from work like last time,

i want granny to cook supper when i'm hungry ,

i want h2h talk with dad like we did in the past ,

i want aunty annie to bring me out for dinner and shopping ,

i want to be as free as i can ,

i want a happening life ,

why am i thinking all this ?!

sucky life ,

this is not the life i used to have ,

and i want to

thank papa god for bringing bei to me ,

at least he cheer me up ,

he got a funny power to make me change a lot of things.

so please don't bring him away.

-love takes a long time to walk down

but it's takes even a longer time to walk up alone.

2010-04-19T23:37:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday MUMMY !

though mum always very fierce but

there's times she's sweet.

happy birthday , hope you like your present.

weekend with bei ,

friday , bei came overnight .

saturday , went bei's house ,

then to his cousin house kill time .

his cousin don't know who drove us & yingrong to meet my cousin & co.

shisha , celebrate jieqi's birthday.

crazy night ,

overnight at bei's house ,

sunday ,

prata with bei downstairs his house.

then rot till 5plus ?

his mum drove me home to bathe & changed ,

dinner with his family , funny & scary .

then bei overnight at my house ,

but now bei's not with me ,

no one sleeping with me tonight ):

happening day ,

school was uber relaxing and easy today yet early morning f suay.

chin confiscate my phone early in the morning , f only.

ss & cep was free period ,

english , went dental with xiaohui.

after school ,

went vivo with xiaohui & zewei .

search mum's present .

bei came to meet us after his lessons.

then home ,

things happened ):

paranoid kid.

then sort things out.

acc bei to eat , see him off in that blue cab.

bei ,

though i cold you just now ,

but i actually care ,

luv you ttm.

sorry.

2010-04-16T20:31:00.002+08:00

haywire/

don't know what came over me,
went home straight after school ,
straight up to my bed ,
couldn't sleep but stayed in bed til 8pm ,
mum asked me why come home so early ,
auntie asked told me , she never say see me stayed in room so long before.
not even going to the toilet ,
say i siao , -,,-
mum's out of town ,
cousin jio me out tmr night , still hesitating.
bei coming meet me for dinner.

i love you more than you expected.

kay ,bye.

2010-04-16T00:34:00.005+08:00

frighten much ,

long day ,

sucky day with a lil perfect is what i could i describe today.

my E71 officially died ,

half the day in queensway shopping centre for my E72.

bei came to meet me for his lunch , mac .

around 4 plus , he left for his stuffs.

boring >:

waited like a idiot , walking rounds.

bought a dress.

went home ,

realize never take the previous memory card , f.

cab back ,

sucky things happens ,

scare the shit out of me.

rush home ,

luv bei .

2010-04-14T14:29:00.002+08:00

waking up beside your dearest is the best thing ever/♥

didn't attend school ytd ,

stomachache ,

mum brought me to the doctor ,

gastric flu or something ,

not sure ,

i only know if don't take medicine ,

then next time can't take alcohol ):

then baking session with mum & sis .

chewy chocolate cookies.

yummy !

had pizza for dinner ,

but vomit everything out -'-

bei came around 11 plus or 12?

then walked over to abc for posb and then get drinks and cigarette.

headed under my block ,

then heard some cats quarreling , damn eerie.

change spot ,

laugh till stomachache ,

around 4am ,

bei went up with me ,

overnight (L)

ygw , get over me and treat your next girl better .

i'm moving fine without you and

it's impossible for me to leave my boyf over you.

i know ytd i may sound really crude , sorry.

i hope you don't do silly things anymore.

buh bye .

2010-04-07T19:41:00.003+08:00

Bby M .

this post is dedicated to Bby M.

bi , i find myself so clingy to you alrd.

used to you coming to my house at night to acc me.

tonight you might not come , so busy ):

you're like my happypill ,

always can make me laugh one ,

i'm sorry if i said wrong things today kay.

luv you much.

2010-03-28T18:12:00.002+08:00

I'M IN A GOOD MOOD.

it's uber rare to see me saying that i'm in a good mood.

K.O at 8am ,

woke up at 11am ,

late for church ,

so went queensway to find something nice to cover up

the patch that my sister made her the new bag or rather my new bag.

like so weird to use that bag of hers lah ,

but so wasted if i don't use .

this lil sister of mine never fails to regret what she bought after at least an hour.

reached home around 3 pm to acc my sister.

waiting for my dinner now!

2010-03-26T00:26:00.004+08:00

jump & laugh till peng.

boring day ,

meet fabian at blk 40 .

wait for zw ,

then go mama shop , buy cigarette.

then up to fabian house's

shuchuan came.

then home to change and prepare .

bus to bmc ,

mac to study ,

around 9 plus ,

void deck ,

camwhore , the rest on fb .

then reach home 11pm.

2010-03-23T21:31:00.003+08:00

you know it boy , off you go with your bike.

headed to school at 9am due to the rain ,

aunty shelter me there!

security very good mood , let me in without pink slip.

the trainer damn joker ,

captain's ball was uber fun ,

but that black dog anyhow bang ,

now my knee got patches of blueblack! ):

baking session with waiyee & lesbo.

fun ttm,

lesbo went off around 7pm?

waiyee went off around 830pm?

bathe and stuffs.

i'll never forget the eye contact and that priceless expression you gave me today ,

it's lingering in my mind since afternoon.

2010-03-22T23:23:00.003+08:00

i miss _ _ _ _ .

slept at 4am ,

didn't attend school ,

mum don't want give money-'-

woke up at 3pm ?

rot till 6pm ,

cab to bmc , meet JJ & fabian.

kfc , mac.

cab home after a stick.

when you're bored ,

you'll explore your laptop's functions ,

then you'll realise that you will camwhore !

hahaha .

need to force myself to sleep ,

if not tmr can't wake up ,

then lee will come calling me again.

and my dearest sister ask me to use her new bag and she stole my crumpler !

oh god!

2010-03-21T03:23:00.004+08:00

body clock spoilt.

yah yah , yes.

my body clock went haywire.

and my mood now aint bright and nice.

can't get to sleep ,

slept at 11am?

woke up after 30 mins and never sleep till now.

went holland and queensway with sister ,

she got her bag , like finally.

church at 8am later and i can't sleep now.

hope i won't doze off while waiting to get baptise!

and when you rot at home ,

you'll realize a laptop , wii , tvee , drama can't satisfy you at all.

it just can't kill of the boredom.

cooked chicken soup for sister just now ,

i'm sucha good sister (Y)

why school reopen so soon ,

8am - 5pm D:

i miss sec 1 to sec 3 life ,

if i'm at that age ,

i'll be going to somewhere to camp instead of school.

i regret not going to obs at sec 3.

2010-03-18T02:57:00.006+08:00

JB on tuesday night.

tuesday , meet the parent session.

bmc with dad.

then home ,

prepare and mum drove me to get my passport.

then off to malaysia , JB.

grocery cost her RM 1700 = SGD 700

shopping cost her RM 700 plus = SGD 300

monster!

then home around 1am ?

watch the legend of lady yang till morning 7am .

okay , i know it's a old show but i like that actor & actress that act as the emperor and ladyship.

it's like he so gentle to the girl can?

somemore emperor are meant to be flirty ,

yet he's devoted to lady yang.

nice show , though it's old but watch lah.

i know i'm crazy , and i feel so old now cause of the show.

tmr maybe going shopping with sister to hunt for our new bag.

and today i did something which i regret much.

PICTURES ^^

2010-03-15T23:35:00.003+08:00

contented (L)

woke up at 3plus.

watch a very old show on funshion .

so engross in it ,

then around 7 plus ,

granny drove us to eat at redhill market.

then went out around 8plus to queensway .

wait for bby to knock off and home.

on the phone with bby now.

and i just slit my finger while locking the gate , how smart.

and bby still say take chopper chop off.

luv you (L)

2010-03-14T19:28:00.003+08:00

hate you much ,

hate you , yet so hard.

i'm not letting your texts , words or actions affect my mood.

i'll not agree to go out with you anymore!

you don't keep your promise.
fml.

went for a haircut on friday ,
and the mama shop uncle told me marlboro price's increasing on monday -'-
then at night , meet shuchuan & co.
drank downstairs my house,

saturday went gallery hotel for the baptism thing ,
overnight there ,
came back today.

encounter alot of things ,
feeling so frustrated now.

meet the parent session tmr at 3pm.
with lee somemore.

when will you realise everything ,
i need you to wake up.

2010-03-08T22:54:00.001+08:00

day out /

school ,
settle some stuffs ,
back at five plus .
bathe and prepare ,
wait to koksoon , zewei & xuyang.
then bus to queensway.
pool till 9 plus ,
cab to my house downstairs ,
slack till 10 plus ,
went home .

ong says he will call me tonight ,
but my phone didn't ring.

2010-03-08T00:22:00.004+08:00

it's too much for me to handle.

move back to mum's place,
alot of things happen ,
so fast that i couldn't accept that it's a fact.
i miss my dad , granny & grandpa.
crying , moody .

but through this incident ,
i learnt alot ,
and i realise ong actually do care for me.

i need to cool down ,
adapt ,
if only time could rewind.

2010-03-03T22:24:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE (L)

look ^
so poor thing , kana disturb so jialat.
sorry hur.

totally fun today ,
it's been so long since i have so much fun.
cake facial , fooling around .
disturbing birthday girl ,
trying to toss her up and etc.

Michelle , happy sixteenth !

and changed my pixon to E71 ytd,
so sad that my pixon leave me ,
but looking at the new E71 makes me forget my pixon.
went home around 6pm ,
prepare and walk to tiong ,
wait for koksoon & gabriel .
mrt to toa payoh ,
make my phone ,
bought crystal case .
then mrt to bugis ,
and then home .

2010-02-27T17:18:00.002+08:00

what i want is so simple , yet it's so hard.

ah gong's cancer came back.

can't operate , can't do anything .

wait for days to pass?!

why is it so unfair?!

went FR annual dinner last night ,

won the 5th prize , new white laptop .

dead drunk last night .

when we gain something ,

we lost something else.

reb told me ,

i called ong when i'm drunk ,

damn , don't know what i blabber last night ,

dare not reply now.

going vivo to help out later ,

tired like shitz.

2010-02-24T14:21:00.003+08:00

you're my desire/

i hate bee! ,

a bee stung me ytd morning !

now it's swollen like shitz .

didn't attend school today ,

feeling so unwell over a bee.

monday & tuesday.

went heights with elaine , shihui & lesbo .

wait for lesbo to bathe and stuffs.

then cab to my house ,

prepare and cab to vivo.

find daddy ,

then something happen ,

and i fucking cried.

i'll forget what happen.

then went sky park around 7?

cam whore , pictures on fb

shop around.

around 9 plus , they went home .

i went to find daddy.

reach home only ,

go hospital ,

ah gong suffering again .

then around 3am ?

went home alone ,

don't dare sleep ,

i fear being at home alone ,

cry to sleep at around 5am ?

wake up at 7am ,

went school .

after school , vinny & amanda acc me home.

brought vinny to visit ah gong .

sent her home ,

and mummy asked me to stay for dinner .

bonding with sister & mum -.-

then 9 pm bus home.

2010-02-17T18:57:00.004+08:00

CNY !

chu yi ,

went boonkeng to 拜年 .

then to grandaunt's house.

alot relatives ran to malaysia to escape giving ang bao !

smart like shitz.

then rot till 7pm?

cab to tiong meet JJ ,

late as usual ,

went my house , change out of my heels and dress.

out to get birthday present for daddy ,

i got him a kuma kuma pillow ,

JJ got him a cup.

wait for reb to meet us ,

then walk up to my house ,

uncle drove us to geylang for daddy's birthday celebrations.

then around 1am?

JJ buay tong alrd , ko in the car.

chu er ,

woke at 3pm?

cab to boon keng ,

not much ang pao ,

rot there with sister ,

around 7 plus ?

JJ came .

then after awhile ,

walked to mrt meet leroy and zaihui.

mrt to tiong ,

went zaihui's house to blackjack and daidi .

lose like shitz .

home around 12 ?

chu san ,

jialat one.

cab to boonkeng ,

only recieve one ang bao ,

cab home after dinner.

today , woke up late.

skipped school .

woke up around 3 plus?

rot at home.

2010-02-13T21:05:00.006+08:00

i yearn to be ong's soulmate but i won't.

i'm not gonna care about ong's text anymore ,

i promise.

ytd was uber happy ,

spent my whole day with sweetf ,

went cine ,

get tickets for valentine's day ,

took neoprints ,

then back to my house to change and rest ,

back to cine ,

and my sweetf was real cute ,

see the photos and you all shall know it :B

then went for our movie ,

afterwards went vivo ,

yougurt ! , now then i know sweetf hates yougurt!

and through sweetf ,

i know that someone is very mean and fake.

damn , don't know why i trust you last time ,

so you break with py cause she don't want to let you kiss her.

need so desperate anot?

didn't know you're sucha person.

ygw , i was wrong about you.

mrt to find reb .

then mrt back tiong and mac.

slack at shelter to waste time as dad's not back yet.

then gave dad a surprise by showing up with the cake ,

but instead he surprise us by scaring us as he alrd predict that we'll celebrate his birthday in advance .

today ,

woke up at 1030 , early!

acc dad to vivo , left at 1400 to dian xiao er to meet mum & co. for lunch.

after lunch ,

mum gave me & vinny 300 bucks to shop :B *thumbs up*

bought a top from zara ,

tanktop from pull and bear ,

shorts from topshop

a sandal with vinny , twin sandal , LOL.

cab home after that ,

changed and went cine with dad.

intended to take neoprint one but closed alrd D:

so we went bugis ,

and there's this joke ,

my dad and i wore red top and white bottom ,

and he got a rose for his girlf , but asked me to hold it .

and when he bump into his friend ,

his friend mistook me as his girlf.

LOL.

mrt to boon keng ,

reunion dinner , steamboat.

lastly ,

HAPPY NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINE READERS :B

2010-02-12T00:29:00.003+08:00

D's getting me spinning over him.

sick last two days , fever .

like half dead , sucks.

school today ,

boring like !@#$%^&

then after school cab home with lesbo.

then prepare and bus to lesbo's house.

wait for her to prepare and then left for sim lim at 3pm?

then search for her casing but the apunnehneh piss her off.

she so funny can?

then walk over to bugis ,

got my bag , like finally.

then lesbo got her high waist skirt.

then i'm coughing , like half dead plus never bring card out.

so bus home to rest and take card.

bus to vivo ,

dinner at FR ,

then we went shopping around ,

fun fun fun !

then saw eliza at zara.

went up FR ,

wait for dad ,

uncle sent lesbo home at 11pm?

when you have this ,

you yearn for that ,

when you have that ,

you yearn for something more.

humans are greedy by nature.

and yes , i'm also greedy because of you.

2010-02-07T22:00:00.005+08:00

i can't read you , not even a thing.

a moment you're so gentle and nice ,

a moment later you're cold like nobody business.

i want to know everything about you ,

what you're thinking and stuffs like that.

D woke me up at 645 , he sound very gentle .

but his surrounding told me he didn't slept?

wild guess.

at 658 , he called again

he caught me still in bed and really woke me up !

how cute can he get ,

but the best thing is ,

after waking me up ,

he went mia ,

no call nor text .

see , guys are always like that.

whatever , it don't affect me much.

church at 0730 ?

lost track of time cause i'm like semi awake.

performed for two service ,

god damn tired D:

0145 cab to mum's place.

sleep all the way till 0430 ,

woke up by vinny with her magnum ,

she actually place it on my lips ,

imagine you're woken up by the cold magnum.

how funny.

had a very unhappy conversation with mum ,

felt like i'm accused ,

no , i should say yes , i'm accused.

didn't spill out the truth cause

if i do so , vinny will get it.

went swimming with petrina at delta.

after a few sticks ,

0930, cab home.

2010-02-06T11:59:00.000+08:00

you know i want you to be the one , don't you ?

i'm getting so emotional ,

over a drama , a sentence and even a facial expression.

my intuition tells me that D's angry with me ,

i can't describe why is this feeling bugging me.

church today ,

go there few hours

for performing 20 mins ,

waste time like free one.

then cab to mum's place.

eat , rot , crap.

then bathe and petrina came.

went down with vinny to meet her.

slack , smoke , crap.

home around 1130?

boring day ,

tmr need to be in church at 730 , god.

D is gonna wake me up (Y)

i'm falling for your mesmerizing smile.

lastly , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAIHUI :B

2010-02-05T23:37:00.003+08:00

why why why?

your ideal soulmate's eyes is always not on you ,

yet the one that's not your ideal one , is always stuck on you.

cycling plan failed D:

baking session today at mum's place.

muffins!

so satisfied cause i bake muffins ,

maybe to everyone baking muffin is nothing

but since i try to bake banana muffin once in home econ class

i wanted to try baking on my own .

and i did it today! :B

around 7 plus ,

cab to QT swimming complex ,

passed DOCK the muffins ,

his smile , so charming.

LOL .

funny right ?

laugh laugh laugh readers.

i'm so happy till i'm being nonsensical ,

don't know what i'm posting ^

swimming tmr?

vinny wants to wake me up at six to go mum's place ,

i shall see how she do it .

2010-02-04T22:20:00.003+08:00

the real prince will never allow his princess to tear.

my dad told me ^

random right , but etched in my pea brain.

swimming with mum , uncle marc , vinny & celena at RSYC.

steam room with mum , fun!

dinner was like sin sin sin , like never swim like that.

then after a few sticks ,

uncle drive me home .

today ,

meet celena after school ,

walked home find vinny :D

then went down for a few sticks ,

petrina joined us ,

fun fun fun , (inside secret)

went home around 9 plus .

pasir ris tmr , cycling !

it's been oh so long since i had so much fun luh ,

next time i know who to find when i'm down alrd.

2010-02-02T13:17:00.003+08:00

everything i do is nothing.

i'm not happy at all , why?

i don't feel like doing anything ,

i don't even want to go school .

i just sleep , smoke , swim .

why?

2010-01-30T18:35:00.002+08:00

dedicated to waiyee , LOL.

woke up around 6pm ,

don't say i pig cause i was doing my art till 4am.

had a stick and went to bathe ,

actually waiyee want date me for dinner one ,

but she very smart , don't know what to eat. LOL

then reb ask me go swimming at the warren.

most probably going swimming cause

waiyee dilly dally one , later dinner become supper , (waiyee , don't kill me)

kay , now need go prepare alrd , bye !

2010-01-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

day out with lesbo /

went home after school ,

changed blogskin , joanna see this , jealous right? LOL!

prepare myself and meet lesbo at my house bus stop around 4 plus?

bus to far east , shop till leg pain bought one dress .

bus to bugis , bought another dress .

wallk around , chit chat & camwhore.

lesbo acc me wait bus , saw shuchuan.

reach home around 11pm.

later gonna do bio project and chiong art alrd *slap forehead*

probably swimming tmr ?

i'll upload the photos slowly ,

each picture one post :B

you're god damn busy hur ,

busy dating huh.

why am i so god damn brainless?

2010-01-28T23:39:00.002+08:00

love and misses /

everything's so fine .

fine till i couldn't get on with it.

ahh , i'm just being nonsensical.

went library today , study & clear my homework! :B

sucha good girl right?

hope my daddy get me E72 soon! *wink*

2010-01-25T20:09:00.003+08:00

everything's smooth .

fever gone ,

school today , on time :D

i want E72 ! (waiyee recommend)

got a tube jumper today ,

need to get more dress for CNY asap!

money money money , i need money.

i still miss you , aww.

2010-01-20T19:29:00.005+08:00

fever sucks !

i'hv got so so so much things undone ,

1 . i have yet to get my clothing for CNY

2. i have far too much of homework undone , ( including assessments )

3. i seriously need to quit smoking.

4. i have yet to got doreen's present.

5. most importantly , i need to sleep early!

fever since two days back , ytd went to celebrate doreen's birthday at top one .

came home , check temperature , 39.5 .

was feeling so terrible.

didn't turn up for school today .

and and i want to go swimming badly!

2010-01-08T14:39:00.004+08:00

good/bad , life still carry on.

new year eve was bad , flu.

end up midnight night which was 2010 1am ,

no drinking , no nothing but

mac with zaihui downstair my block.

couldn't rmb which day , went zaihui's house for lyekiat's birthday?

and school's sucks ,

alone.

kim diff class as me.

nevermind ,

perhaps being alone , i study better?

late on the second day of school , how great?

came in during recess-.-

mister tan say , "might as well don't come"

homework was fine ,

did everything on time , (for now)

commotion today ,

not me.

later meeting kim , waiyee , stephanie at tiong.

serious thing -.-

xiumin ,

cheer up uh ,

he never cherish you is his loss.

guys are suckers .

see you soon.

though it's my decision ,

i'm still a lil too not over you,

those photos kill.

2009-12-30T01:44:00.003+08:00

oh well , bye .

previous operation wasn't a sucess ,
later at 8am , gong gong having another one.
if he can make it , he'll live for 1-2 years more.
but if he fail , he'll never walk out of that room.
uncle daniel and a lady came ,
follow by john & ah boy
then auntie alice & jovin !
they pray for gong gong ,
even jovin know how to pray .

i'm totally quits with you.
i tried to be nice alrd.
treat your next girlf better.
i'll not forget the memories we share.
perhaps i'm just not the right one for you.
bye.

2009-12-28T01:04:00.005+08:00

granny's birthday / update.

christmas eve went drinking at oh carol?
my christmas wasn't a fruitful one ,
rotting at joanna's place till 11.30-.-

ytd went supper for granny's birthday.
then went havelock till 4am plus.

today skip church service
but went for baptism class .
after that went mom's place collect passport.
then home,
cook mushroom soup and sunny side up for gong gong ,
i cook four eggs then finally got one intact yolk
then went i leaving for hospital , i tripped .
and my sunny side up yolk broke D:
break my lil fragile heart !
then hospital to acc gong gong with granny and auntie .
around 10.30pm daddy and uncle came.
then reach home 12 plus?
pictures another day ,
blogger is such a bitch.

pray that gong gong's operation
will be a sucess ,
speedy recovery
much love.

and b's back <3

2009-12-24T09:45:00.004+08:00

sleeping pills perhaps /

^ is how i look like when i'm doing 10 pages of assessment.

my fringe was so disturbing , so i clip it up .

look very retard but it's so much comfortable.

been awake since 12am ,

damn , think i sleep too much alrd .

can't sleep till now , my batt like fully charged .

even i doing assessment couldn't help a shit .

i happily complete ten pages of my english assessment

without my eye signaling me to sleep.

think i need sleeping pills to sleep through everything .

must think of a way.

2009-12-23T20:30:00.000+08:00

sleeping cures , and i meant everything.

trying to entertain myself ,

go out , watch tvee , bejeweled and etc ,

but can't get what happen between me and e/gem.

out of my pea brain.

why.

so ytd after going out with joanna & wangshi , (tyvm for ytd) .

bathe and slept all the way till today 8pm ,

expect for receiving calls a few times ,

felt so much better .

it's christmas eve tmr ,

am i gonna sleep it through or not .

shall sleep again now.

bye.

2009-12-22T00:03:00.003+08:00

a moment / forever ?

went out 6am to slack ,

then reach home quarrel with dad.

one last time , no more of these.

slept till 6pm ,

bathe and prepare then heads down heights ,

pool.

then after a few sticks , cab to redhill market .

pasar malam!

one hotdog , 1/2 a bowl of shark's fin & 3/4 of ramily burger.

damn full !

call cab ,

home around 10.40pm?

had a tiff with khc again D:

sorry luh.

2009-12-20T23:59:00.004+08:00

i'll wait .

reached home about four am ytd ,

midnight with reb , acc her cause she quarrel with dad.

watch avatar , quite nice.

slack and home.

today woke up at late noon.

went for christmas party at jurong country club , (church early celebrations).

reached home about eleven pm.

2009-12-19T04:06:00.002+08:00

hurt/cool down/dao ?

INSOMNIA(!)
vivo , help out.
night safari , havelock road.
will post pictures of night safari in my next post.
b passed him test , must have secduce the person , LOL!

E/
heard that you scald your hand today ,
wanted to text you but hesitated ,
ah mah was scolding me ,
guess you don't need me too .
take care.

luv bibi.

2009-12-18T00:23:00.002+08:00

i did my part /

vivo everyday , not shopping but help out.
sick of my boring life ,
someone save me from this kind of life please.
sort things out with b , (Y)

E ,
i did my part alrd ,
explained everything.
clear up everything single thing that's wrong.
yet you want to insist being like this ,
saw you ytd but didn't walked over.
take care during work .

luv you much /

2009-12-15T00:19:00.004+08:00

we're reaching the end/

your actions god damn showed me.
you both disappoint me thoroughly.
it's gonna cause me to change ,

E/
what did i do?
i have been thinking for days ,
you keep going away from me.
no calls nor text ,
no meet up.
are we still friends ?
i enjoy being with the friend that's very nice to me ,
fetch me to work ,
acc me when i'm down ,
overnight with me ,
talk to me about every lil secret .
you changed.

Y/

we reached the end ,
you god damn lied to me ,
no money don't want go out ,
then going to ktv , spending another 10 bucks
means what?
i rack my brains trying to spend time with you ,
thinking if where to go ,
thinking of how to make you happier ,
but you hack care my effort ,
i'm tired , i'm not gonna put in any effort.
i mean what i say ,

life now sucks much , fml.
i'm starting to hate every single shit.
to think i still once tried to quit smoking for the both of them ,
now i feel that i'm a fool .

2009-12-07T18:07:00.001+08:00

i'll disappear now , this very minute.
i'm falling apart.

2009-12-05T16:18:00.006+08:00

haywire after a lil happiness _l_

updating now with numb legs , feeling nausea & deprived sleep of two days
for k.jiawen tag .

not in the god damn mood to take pictures or whatsoever anymore ,
doubt my next few post will have picture smiling like ^

grandpaa in sgh , liver cancer .
heartache to see him like that ,
he had to suffer the pain of all those thick needles inserted in him,
tummy aching with a lil move,
he dotes on me alot ,
never once scold me ,
gave me money ,
despite him being so sick ,
he still worry for me ,
asking me to go home & get some rest.

quit my job at FR ,
for i want to stay at gradpaa side at least 22/24.
sgh became my third home ,
20 hours - 22 hours in sgh.
prayed for him like i never did.
grandpaa & grandma had their baptism together today in sgh.

bye.

2009-11-22T08:29:00.002+08:00

aww , i miss sg.
still stuck in thailand ,
cathay pacific is better than jetstar ,
no delayed flight!

i miss emmeline , love & waiyee (!)

post again when i'm back in sg.

2009-11-12T21:00:00.002+08:00

haywire emotions /

i cried to sleep on tuesday night ,
reason : i was the last to sleep & i felt so lonely without someone beside me D:
the feelings sucks , boo!

then today went work at 10am , damn early.
peel orange till finger hurt like no tmr.
went shopping after work ,
bought a tube from bebe, money fly but uber contented.
currently at mom's place again ,
dad was like not very happy with my overnight at mom's place ,
he say ,"when you telling me you moving me for good huh? "
so sarcastic hur ._.
bi came , he's playing with ezekiel like a big kid.
think he gonna overnight today ?

kim , love .
don't cry alrd alright ,
things will be fine for you.
i'll pray for you ,
i'll lend you my shoulder again when you cry okay ,
love will always be there for you <3

2009-10-24T20:56:00.006+08:00

too sensitive / paranoid.

plaza sing today with doreen & emmeline.
acc them for lee min ho's signature-.-
billy bombers for lunch.
walked walked , doreen bought lots of stuffs from etude house?
the member card damn cute luh.
then watched love happens , very touch , i cried D:
then to yeo's house ,
went queensway repair psp .
then home ,

i think to you , i don't meant anything.
maybe you think i'm unreasonable ,
but everytime also like that , i felt it .
when you need me , you are like the best guy.
but when you don't need me , i'm like nothing to you.
think about it.

blogger's a bitch , stuck all of a sudden when uploading.
shall upload the rest in the next post.

2009-10-21T23:02:00.003+08:00

(!) exams sucks , shoo.

boohoo , it's unlimited playtime ! ( i sound like some primary school kids )
the day i'm waiting , 21 october!
i'm crazy over holidays :B

i'm going to sleep till 123456 pm , sleep till full.
no more dragging myself out of the bed early in the morning.
no more reaching home at 7 or 10! :D
no books for 2 months!

i'll blog blog blog ,
and plurk , plurk , plurk
and shop , shop , shop!

and got people want beat me up yet cannot ,
want i start , think i dai one ah ,
i start , if police come , i tio first .
wait till you can beat me up then tell me.
don't sought others help , you want fight then just you and me.
and i got manners , i don't anyhow call anyone bitch like you :O

yeo , i alrd said i'll acc you after exams.
if you still want assume i will only go heights everyday ,
then i can't help it.

2009-10-08T18:50:00.003+08:00

Bus Mrt Walk

a stranger told me ^

stranger : i got one bmw at home .
me : oh? then why didn't you drive it out?
stranger : my bmw is 9 series one , B - bus , M - mrt , W - walk !
me , kim & emmeline : laugh till peng.

it's boring nowaday , studying all day long.
sick of books , notes.
school today with emmeline ,
breakfast from 7-eleven .
skipped pe , boring .
skipped dnt , went out of school for lunch early ,
kfc with emmeline , kim joined afterwards.
went home , changed & stuffs ,
went tiong bahru plaza , walk walk /
went back to school for ms lee tuition till 6pm plus?
mister tan ph asked me if i beat jiani up in toilet , tmd !
i don't even need to touch her , she alrd crying like fuck alrd.
damn it , LAD!
currently at yeo's house .

and paper one is tmr D:
fast right?!

happy fourteen monthsary / (L)

alot of pictures , lazy upload .
after exams then slowly upload luh.
will not be posting till end of exams alrd , miss me :D

2009-10-04T00:28:00.004+08:00

i realise your importance *pray hard*

^ refering to my granny.
she went for a checkup & doc found out there's a stone in her stomach.
she insist on to postpone her operation for she wants to watch ge tai -.-
today she said something that made me very emotional.

granny : later i want go watch ge tai .
me: huh ?! raining leh , plus you sick leh , don't go luh .
granny : now don't go , die alrd then can't watch alrd.

i shall pray real hard for granny to be fine.

ytd school ,
meet b/yeo around 7pm with jieneng , xiumin & ben.
they had dinner ,
went up to b/yeo 's ,
watched them mahjong , i don't know a single thing about mahjong.
then around 10plus?
b/yeo sent me home.
he acc me awhile & went home.

today , went sgh to acc granny & pass some stuffs to auntie.
then after awhile , i went to tabao food & went up to b/yeo 's house .
rot & nap awhile.
around 4pm?
meet ben & bought waffle.
then we cab to tiong cc , so rare.
watched them play till 6.30pm?
went to tiong market to tabao dinner for granny.
watched tvee with her , acc her .
then around 8pm?
went down to heights , meet emmeline & waiyee.
realised it's 中秋节 , so bought candles and play.
talk talk , slack slack & home around 10plus?

2009-10-01T23:52:00.002+08:00

you said it /

emmeline came my house this morning & we went to school together.
got our breakfast from 7-eleven.
after school , went home.
meet ginwei at tiong bahru plaza ,
acc him to bukit batok driving center.
everything done & he left .
while i meetup with cousin.
order mac for dinner at void deck ,
vomited , too full-.-
then went safra with zd & zw & hh for pool .
i managed to learn a lil .
hh sent me home around 10pm plus?
acc him talk till 11 plus ?

i'll always rmb what you said today.

2009-09-25T18:54:00.004+08:00

paranoid /

ytd late for school , 9am-'- , then after school , meet yeo at his house , so finally.
around 7pm went home & meet emmeline ,
tiong bahru plaza , griller for dinner .
then walked around ,
popular to get zewei's bio notes , i got one too -.-
then ntuc , & my house downstair.
then emmeline went home around 10pm?

today , school as usual , boring.
the nearer exams are , the more i don't feel like studying , no motivation.
after school today , i went opp with waiyee & jiani for lunch.
then back to school for extra class ,
i did my chinese compo , studied a lil bio & finish reading jiani's book ( to forget you ) , veh nice.
then did my maths paper with miss lee's help.
after that around 4pm , went to yeo's house.
and around 5pm , we walked to tiong cc , i walked home.
meet emmeline , went heights .
saw zhengda & zewei , and damn .
they forced us to dine with them , laksa steamboat.
after that went to to meet yeo ,
acc him to dinner/supper around 10pm.
around 10 plus , yeo sent me home.

at griller ,
emmeline capture my candid :O
feel a lil insecure at that moment,
even if it's a joke.

2009-09-23T22:48:00.004+08:00

oh shucks ,

school today ,
late on purpose , cause want to give love a surprise.
lessons
then bmc with winni & emmeline , cut hair , but didn't eventually , the person off.
then tiong bahru plaza ,
bought phulwin's birthday present ( super junior file )
and then bump into her at tiong bahru plaza, pass her :D
lunch ,
walked around ,
home,
movie , whiteout!
veh funny with emmeline around can , *inside joke*
then walked around &
tuition.
after that back to tiong bahru plaza ,
jiani want to eat her carrot cake,
then staircase to slack ,
then home around 10.30pm/
bathe &
waiyee called :D

finally , tmr no need wake up early.
everyday wake up early , veh taoyan! tmd.

and yeo , i miss you millions :O

aww ,
this is the thing that dropped halfway
when i'm on my way to school D:

2009-09-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

happy fifteen , love / :D

and also phulwin luh ,
(wanted to get you super junior file but don't know whether you'll like it ? , get you something else later on when i see anything nice)

happy birthday okay ,
hope you both will enjoy your birthday.

prepare love's birthday present alrd , bet she'll be surprise?
shall upload the pictures in my next post , in case she see my post later on :0

school today , nearly late , woke up at 7.10am.
science got what surprise test , nearly fail , just passed :/
jialat lah , must study alrd.
after school , opposite with kim
bus 63 to tiong bahru plaza to meet yeo .
lunch at griller ,
walked around ,
yeo got me a carebear , thankyou (L)
then went burger king to wait for jiajin ,
yeo went opposite to get the crystal case for my phone , thankyou.
after that he went meet his friend & chalet :/
wait for jiajin come then go hunt for presents , veh fickled minded , heh.
then jiajin study & i was like fiddlling with the present ,
she's nice for once today , *you know i know*
then fabian come & then had more fun *inside secret*
around 9 plus ? bus 195 home.

2009-09-21T18:20:00.004+08:00

rewind time /

meet rebecca at clementi for kbox & ljs , then cine & then orchard central & tiong bahru plaza & home .

now going out to cut hair alrd , rebecca accompanying me .

yeo ,
you meant so much ,
we were once so happy together ,
flipping through the photos we once took ,
but now ,
everything's fading ,
you said you don't want a breakup ,
but i felt it ,
you don't care about me , my feelings alrd.
your words came out so naturally , not thinking twice ,
your feelings & love for me is not as strong.
why can't we be like last time ?

but
ytd i was uncertain whether i want a breakup anot cause
you harsh words , your attitude keep flowing & repeating in my mind.
but today , after going to your house ,
during my day with rebecca , without you .
i'm certain , i don't want a breakup ,
you're as impt ,
you're the one i like ,
i'll try to tolerate as much as i could.

2009-09-20T17:01:00.005+08:00

it's all worth / perfect wedding.

happy marriage to alfred & paulyn / (L)

friday
went out with yeo , jieneng , xiumin & ben.
home around 9pm.
bath & prepare ,
10 plus , uncle drove us to groom's house.
overnight at groom's place.

mac delivery-.-
and then talked crap & rot.
around 4am everyone blackout.

saturday / wedding.
6am woke up ,
prepare & the guys & the groom went to fetch the bride.
they veh kolian!
wear underwear outside the pants , like superman-.-
then from 1st floor climb to 9th floor.
go in , still need eat 酸，甜，苦，辣 ! :D
lime , malt , bittergourd , chili bread.

then to church ,
my job was receptionist ,
so sat there & rot , ask the guest to sign & write their blessing & collect ang bao!
after the ceremony ,
buffet time ,
then we acc the bride & groom for their photoshoot at esplanade,
i swear the photographer is real good ,
then send bride home for tea ceremony ,
& me, john , mike , dad , reb went to north point.
arcade , walk walk , buy sweet ,
then i keep coughing , john keep say i got lung cancer-.-
after that to the dinner place at yishun.
my job was usher , *leg pain*
halfway through the dinner ,
the bride & groom have to play a game ,
we specially designed for them,
the 酸，甜，苦，辣 limbo.
the bamboo stick , with marshmallow , dark chocolate , sour sweet & chili.
the have to eat them using the limbo way.
veh interesting.
after that we wait for bride & groom to sent the guest off ,
and try to make them drunk ,
then last photo & we all went off.
we took boon teck's car home ,
i left my sweet with john , tmd.

sunday/
didn't attend church ,
woke up around 4pm.
boring-.-

2009-09-17T22:09:00.003+08:00

it'll never be the same/

too sick to attend school today , woke up around 2pm.
replied jiajin & text yeo.
went to yeo's house for my keys ( i left my keys with him ytd )
yeo went basketball , like again -.-
then jiajin's house to meet her.
went harbourfront , yoshinoya for lunch & study.
home around 8pm.

didn't pinpoint anyone ,

2009-09-16T22:18:00.003+08:00

thankyou love ,

uh uh uh , love is ktyq luh.
thankyou her for helping me to do my work when i veh sick ,
thankyou her for being concern .

whole day at school veh shag , keep coughing.
then having fever , 38. 1 , so slept through every lesson.
even sleep my recess away-.-
then after school , went home straight .
bathe & sleep till around 6 pm.
called yeo ,
he acc me for dinner at mei ling st instead of doctor , cause clinic closed.
then bus 64 to anchorpoint , he needs toilet & then yougurt (:
bus 33 to tiong bahru plaza to get medicine ,
then bus 16 my house ,
and gong gong asked yeo in , surprising.
used comp , we compete typing maniac in fb.
around 10pm yeo went off to meet his gay (!)

you're the best .

2009-09-15T18:41:00.004+08:00

crying helplessly,

it sucks to be sick alone.

whole day veh sick , still went school.
after school , felt even worse.
went to mac with xiaohui for lunch.
bus home , bathed & felt worse .
difficult breathing.
grandma came home bathe & go out again , left me alone again -'-
slept till 6pm & woke up again ,
whole house veh dark , leg cramp , veh sick , then cried .
veh scary to be alone at home ,
then i called jiajin , thankyou .
then after that ,
use comp , and zewei talked to me on msn & for once i find that he's good.
not crying anymore ,
cause crying when i'm sick only make me more xinku.

you sucks .

2009-09-14T20:34:00.004+08:00

uglier? oh fuckxz.

ahh , boyf keep complaining that i look better last time compared to now. *roll eyes*
worst, he keep asking me to send him my past pictures, assshole hur.
whatever .

i wasn't late today oh. but now i feeling veh sick , scarly tmr absent alrd , haah.
got back report card , overall results pass :B
after school acc emmeline to tiong bahru plaza with kim.
went home to change
& back to subway to meet emmeline & yeo.
studied & tio suan :/
after that jiani joined us.
walked around & print photos & then dessert shop & chewy junior & bus home.
slacked around & then yeo went off :/

watched tvee & used comp & emmeline goh called me, so rare hur.
call me only want me put songs into her mp3 only , tmd.

2009-09-12T21:20:00.003+08:00

laxative kills ,

studied till late last night :/
today woke up around 4pm ? then used comp till around 7pm meet tham waiyee at vivo for dinner.
ljs for dinner & then walked around , got a top from forever 21. then cab home around 9pm.

ah fuckxz,
school's starting soon , hate to go back. and i'm sleeping so late every night & waking up late in the afternoon. can't imagine how late i'll be on monday?

church tmr , need wake up darn early , wonder if i can wake up? :B

2009-09-07T22:46:00.002+08:00

actually mom dotes on me alot <3

i was so rebellious last time , didn't even spare a thought of how she would feel & went off like that , leaving her alone to worry for me. yet ytd i can see that she still dote on me alot , not blaming me for what i did. veh touched can , her words before i left her & her texts that make me cry.
mom , thankyou.

ytd didn't went to church , was late. so went bmc with yeo for his haircut & then breakfast. after that bus to yeo's house & nap with him till 3pm? studied & comp then went to inter around 6plus? & my mom called surprisingly , she asked me out for dinner at vivo , the restaurant beside vivo. yeo sent me there and he went off. then mom ask me to get him back as she booked his place alrd. so yeo came back with a shy look. my whole family was there lurs , so long since we have dinner as a whole. arcade , step dad sponser & mom went daiso. mum drive me home with yeo & step dad & co cab home. she asked about my lifestyle here & was worried that i can't adapt , she told me to moved back if i can't adapt & gave me hundred bucks. pictures for 060909 will be uploaded in the next post , lazy upload.

supper to celebrate ah gong's birthday at teck whye & reached around 3am?

now going out to meet yeo alrd , bye

edited at 10.26pm / back from jp.

i bet you forgot everything ,
all about our stuffs.
you forgot yet i remember.
to you ,texting me is a waste of message , now i know.
don't want your ring & asked me to take off for you.
choosing today to do all your stunts , how smart.

met yeo & mrt to boon lay , jieneng joined us at redhill. walked around & wait for xiumin & ben to join us. then they three guys went for dinner. after that walked around & mrt to tiong bahru. bus 5 home.

your good wouldn't last,
always for that lil while.
you choose to do all these on the 7th.

2009-09-03T21:19:00.004+08:00

ahh , fuck my mind.

i'm feeling so inferior because of her,
we quarrelled over her,
you used vulgarities on me over her,
i'm actually stupid enough to quarrel with you over her,
we don't quarrel that often at the start ,
when i'm in the bus/walking home ,
i told myself , i'm not going to be affected ,
i'll go home like nothing happen & giggle here & there
now i realised, she actually affects me alot ,
spent hours reading all her previous post ,
saw your pictures with her ,
i know it's all over ,
but i'm still jealous & i mind .
i know i'm unreasonable to feel jealous ,
but the pictures & words forced me to.
and nowadays you don't seems to cherish me as much ,
you still say it's okay for me to leave you , be it a joke or what.
i felt so serious over your sentence & got myself so bothered over it.
am i considered a nuisance to you alrd?
i wondered , did your love for me faded ?
you got tired of me ?
enjoy yourself on saturday,
i'm not being sarcastic ,
i won't stop you from doing anything ,
even though i'm jealous , i'll not show you that sour face of mine.
not revealing any feelings to you ,
perhaps you'll be happier this way.

2009-08-31T17:51:00.007+08:00

my train of thoughts ,

didn't attend school today. went to jiajin's house around 12pm plus? then wait for her to drag her time , like a snail till around 2pm? then bugis for shopping & around 3pm? this ass left me alone at bugis for her nurse chew! veh bad right? , tmd. then i walked around myself & got the right dress for the coming wedding that i'm attending from black ribbon :D after that , veh moody & tired so went home around 5pm plus? overdue pictures.

and pathetic me , have to cook instant noodles myself D:
but instant noodles with cheese is really not bad , must try! :D

mine,chicken & mushroom pasta :D

kimberly's , grilled chicken :D

speechless .

2009-08-30T19:58:00.004+08:00

abnormal ? :/

nah , i don't think i'm abnormal okey you idiot.

church , yeo's house , ion , wisma , fareast , tiong bahru plaza , home :B

can't upload pictures , usb cable screwed up *boo* another time.

2009-08-25T22:03:00.002+08:00

heartache ?

cab to school today, had the bio test that i studied for three weeks :/ then after school went home & bathe & prepare then cab to tekka market? meet bi , his mum cooked wanton mee for me. a lil spicy but nice lurs. then bus 166 to bi's house & then fell asleep. and bi vomited , diarrhoea & keep panting. see him veh poor thing lurs, so xinku! but he damn stubborn,don't want see doctor D: and around 9pm cab home. and and maths common test tmr, i'm not prepared. die alrd lah , tmd! my eyes should be glue to maths worksheets & stuffs but instead my eyes are glue to the tveee, channel U .

i pray,
you get well soon okey.
(L)